Working on balancing things

I have to say, I'm feeling really good about myself at the moment and its partly because of the way I've been handling my situation. With exams and catching up with missed classwork, I haven't had much time to workout or just the energy. Its either sleep or study for me. Of course I'm aware of how that affects my stamina, motivation and strength but I really need to step up my game with studies and therefore I've trained a few times a month. I've lost muscle mass and therefore weight. Not something I'm particularly happy about because loosing tone wasn't the plan. Moving on from the life update.

I feel like for the first time ever I've found that balance between allowing myself to be proud when eating a plate with the right proportions for protein, carbs, fats and enjoying eating a piece of chocolate cake and actually not feeling guilty or worried about a few pounds.

See thing is, weight will always fluctuate. Your schedule will change and you will crave certain things. It's even worse when it happens to be on a day when you're bloated and just lazy. At least for me because I already feel terrible as it is and then eating some cookies doesn't help. I've tried to change my thinking about eating sweets and goodies. Mostly because I didn't like feeling guilty. THE GUILT, it just stresses me out. and that just leads to more eating and then before you know it 'm back on that comfort food wheel. There has been weeks or days when food like pizza, cupcakes and cookies just pop up out of no where and who am I to say no if I actually feel like having those things. but while I made the decision to actually eat the slice of pizza, I also made the decision not to feel guilty afterwards. I think just that thought has made so much difference to the way I feel about food that isn't high in nutritional value. I will enjoy it but when I feel like stir fry veges and grilled chicken will do better i'll make myself that. I suppose its about knowing what will help and benefit you more.

My point being, you have to allow yourself to enjoy life, friends, food and just yourself. Be okay with your decisions when you know there isn't a better one for you at that time. Ever since I've 'figured' out what being healthy means to me, I've let go of a lot of negative thoughts and feelings that came with eating. I've always been the chubby kid, and it messes you up. You get bullied for it because apparently after the age of 7 you're 'not allowed' to be chubby or big. What is that even about right?

Back to my situation, I'm glad that my stress and exams haven't made me go downhill with my meals. Usually I just opt for the quick snack that might not necessarily keep me full for long and pretty soon after i'm back in the kitchen looking for something to munch on. So it was important to make sure I got a good breakfast and lunch. I kept my dinners light but filling so there were soups and vegetables mostly.

Finding that motivation to keep consistent can be tough with a lot going on. Keeping your thoughts positive and just evaluating yourself really helps with finding a balance. To let yourself have what you're craving but not forgetting to sip on green tea and add chia and flax seeds to your oatmeal.

Enjoy your tea guys!

Chao x